Still not okay. Still.

What am I doing wrong?
Still doing wrong?
Still not treating you right?
How?
Why don't I understand?
You're done with this?
What does that mean?
Not willing to talk about this again?
Can't keep doing this to yourself?
What, exactly?
Not meeting my eyes...
is the cave a safe place for you?
but you wrote me that poem...how long ago?
3 weeks
and now you need to protect yourself from me.
What am I doing that you need protecting from...
I feel like I have to watch my words around you
my actions around you
should I not?
Is that not respecting you?
Please understand, I'm scared to lose you.
Why didn't we have this problem last year?
Am I treating you differently from 3 weeks ago?
a semester ago?
a year ago?
You remind me of another best friend...
another one who said
being friends with you stresses me out
so I'm not going to be friends with you anymore-
So I'm scared.
I think I'm losing you
and I don't know how to fix it
Tell me how to treat you right.
What you define as respect.
Tell me I'm worth being friends with
if I can figure this out
if I can treat you right
help me to treat you right,
please

(Note: originally written 12/2/12)