Denial - or Growing Pains

I need to push myself out of my comfort zone.
I can stand on my own two feet.
People don't need me, but they want me.

I need to respect myself.
I can be emotionally strong.
People love me for who I am.

I need to be honest with myself.
I can have my own dreams for myself.
People will respect me for that dream.

I shouldn't need to rely on someone. But someone will be there for me if I do need them.
Someone is out there for me, somewhere and sometime.
Patience and vulnerability and strength.

LIES, I say. Because I don't want to be vulnerable. I don't want to hurt. I don't want to stand on my own. I want to rely, know what will happen, know that someone is there for me no matter what. I don't want to be patient, I don't want to take the journey, I just want to teleport from here

To there.

Skip the years in the middle.
Skip the experiences,
the pain,
the growing.
But if I do, when I get there, I will be no different.

To hold myself accountable is the challenge.
So. Me. It's time to grow up.